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Flying Horses

i am exploding!
bursting & brilliant blue
charged with chaos
warping gravity
with my very presence!

i have no time for your acidic shadows
your rain of contempt
your dreary, drizzling disdain

if you don’t want to rocket through life
blasting into the future
laughing & dancing
bright with the promise of premise
arcing sparks & connecting the stars

then get the fuck out of my way

this world is a wonder
a multiverse of magic
a mystery to be savored
an infinite game

and playmates are all i need

take that, vampires!
your bones are sugar & your black hearts are licorice
& the dust in your lungs is
candyfloss

ZIP! POW!

say good night, gracie

The Maze of the Moon

There’s always a risk when you whisk yourself off into the world. You dance and sneak and stumble through shadow and sunlight, stars in your eyes and demons in your head. Everything screams at you, everything beckons and begs. You twist and you turn, over brambles, through mud, under sea and stone, across cloud and storm. You make meals of the wind. You turn roses into wine. You scrawl runes on the walls of the world and draw maps on the palms of your hands.

This is how it is when you refuse to stay in one place. And it’s impossible to stay in one place. Everything is spinning. Everything is vibrating.

Something claws at the back of your eyes, something you cannot ignore, something you can befriend or belittle, something you can fight or follow. You can swallow your fear, but you can never digest it. You can swallow your pride, but it will always show on your skin.

When you’re lost, you desperately reach out for anything that can steady you, pull you in, keep you safe. You wrap yourself in loneliness and melancholy. You wear your fear like a suit of armor. You wield your insecurity like a sword of flame. When you’re lost in the world, your own demons can be a comfort. They shield you like amber and whisper words of terrible, horrific comfort in your ears. Your heart is your compass, pounding in your chest like dynamite, roaring like the midnight prairie, pulling you further and further into the thorns and weeds.

The world is a mad place. The roads are treacherous and deceptive. There is always a risk when you wander away from home. All you can do is keep stumbling, wandering down the winding paths of the night.

Castling the Bishop

so…

here i am again my kings & queens!
& for your entertainment
i will now
disappear
everything i’ve ever said
everything i’ve ever seen
everything i’ve ever touched
everything i’ve ever thought
everywhere i’ve ever been
everyone i’ve ever loved
every now & every then
every drink i’ve ever drunk
every sink i’ve ever sunk
every brick i’ve ever thrown
every horse i’ve ever rode

&…

for my next amazing trick
i will split my seems &
appears &
couldbes
right down the middle
i will rip off the masters
& dance around this sinking ship we call life

kiss the frog
wave the wand
grant the wish
make it all come true

make it all come true…

Mojo Soup

Ladies & gentlemen & otherwise!

One, two! One, two! Three, four! Five, six! Count off, all hexes, wrecked in effect! A hymn for one, a limb for five, with jamberry spaces left for the alive. In the hive, a buzzing buzzing jamboree of bumbling tumbling frumious seas. Spingle out a match and dance, a spinning gyre of pooka jazz. Grab your punkin ass &–snicker-snack! A laugh of babble, out of mind, honey hiccup cereal lies.

O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay! The sparklebox is crowning wide! Her apple-dappled eyes are powder bright, & I can feel the kumquat in my kangaroo. We’re all brilliant & uffish, puffin traintracks craning a drain. A treacle well is all well & good, but this stuff begs for a riverrun of orange glaze, a muchness of a muchness, a fever-fire flamingo fall.

If you don’t know what to say, say “pickle.” My hedgehog magick triskles at the sparky blue belly of your glassing look. The mirror rouge is floating our boat. Pink the puckets & swab the fuzzy monsters! Fruzzles of glaciated frogs go towning up the jellious cape! Wahoo!

Alligators & crocodiles! Salamanders & newts! Clutch your pocket dominoes & shrug off all the whiffling dust! It’s a babble of baubles, all holiday & hullaballoo! Let’s garou at the candy moon, before the spangles lose their doodles. We’ve got oysters & throbbing jewels, & the alchemy of anatomy is our gauze. It’s tumtum time, this bell-rung beatrix of midnight whirls. The licorice dragons are leafing up the skirts of jumbleruff.

Kookaburra! We jump through hoops. Kazoo! We kiss the pistol chimes. We’re never stuck with drizzly drears as long as we have our cantrip tabs. It’s now or never, sooner or later, a rooster clank of pandemonium. Forever shivers smoke & mirrors, reflected in the pause.

If ya wanna dance this dance, ya gotta have the pepper.

Regeneration

Welcome to my new (sort of) blog!

I’ve been going through a lot of changes lately. I’m on new psych meds, I’m working on building some new habits, and I’m coming to accept and love myself more and more for who I am (rather than who I think I should be or who I think other people think I should be). Basically, I feel as if I’ve regenerated into a new incarnation, much as the Doctor regenerates on Doctor Who. And so I’ve felt I need to reboot this blog. I’ve grown tired of the blog I had and its accumulated posts. I want to work on something new, focusing more on short fiction and poetry.

Because I’m a librarian and want everything to be saved and archived, I’ve moved my old posts over to a different blog. If you like some of my old posts, you can find them there. But this blog will have different content and, I hope, a different feel. A new blog for a new incarnation.